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Interestingly enough, I had a moment of hesitation 

this morning when my alarm sounded harassing me to get out of my perfectly cozy bed and make the ten o'clock Hatha class with the amazing yoga Yoda instructor. I quickly did the math calculating the no time needed for make up, how fast I can throw on yoga gear, time to maybe make my Plexus pink drink, and jet to the studio in time to have some option in selecting my spot in class. The time added up in a synced manner that allowed me to snooze. 

My mind wouldn't let me snooze though. It kept telling me how amazing the class would be and how I couldn't miss it. My hazy half snooze ended before the second alarm rang. I was half dressed and brushing my teeth by the time it sounded. 

Arriving to class, my body was relieved to be there. As I entered the studio, the leader's mat lay at the window wall and many of the already set up yogi mats lay horizontally so the top of our mats lay perpendicular to hers. It took me a good 30 seconds to choose my spot today since I had never participated in a class with this structure. I pitter-pattered my bare feet across the studio from the prop wall to the "front" of the room up against the right wall. 

I chose the front row of the class. I did this because I listened to myself while I assessed the set up. But it is more than just listening to your self-talk. In order to make progress in your journey you must assess your self-talk. Be an observer. This is the only way for you to become aware of the manner in which you are communicating internally. And self-talk is not just the thoughts you have about yourself; no. It is more than that. Self-talk is the way you discuss others internally, the way you analyze situations internally, the manner in which you try to understand your experience internally. 

So today, my self-talk provided me with a new perspective. Thanks to Yoda, the light was shined on the progress of my self-talk through my daily commitment to yoga. I am more than able to get myself up and out of bed for a class because my internal conversation is focused on the positives that derive from following through with my choice. A friend asked me today, "how do you motivate yourself to get out of bed in the morning to go to work out with yoga?" And my response was simple. I just tell myself I am getting up, and I do. 

I surprised myself by selecting a front row place in today's class. I'm the person who sits in the back of faculty meetings and professional development lectures; I'm not a front row regular. But today I showed myself that I no longer live by that label I had given myself. No, now I am more aware of my self-talk and control the tone so I preserve a positive spirit. 

Self-talk is a daily battle. I do not succeed every day. However, I did today. And class was absolutely beautiful as well as the remainder of my day. What are the words you think to yourself the most? How do you talk to yourself? In what way to see others? Try to be just an observer of your thoughts and examine the areas that need repair because you are the only solution to your self-talk.